OK. Your job is going quite well. Your marriage is as good as any of your friends' marriages. Your children may not be serving the Lord with all their hearts; but they're basically honorable, and anyway there's plenty of time for that to change. In fact, things could be classified as satisfactory. You really don't need to seek the Lord with all your heart, do you?
Whether you know it or not, you've become a blind guide for those around you. You've forgotten what your relationship with Jesus is all about. You've bought the lie that it's all about you and how well things are going in your puny world. You have become the center of your relationship with the Lord and are teaching others to do the same by your actions.
Being a child of God and a steward of other people carries with it grave responsibilities - life and death responsibilities. Christianity 101 is being so sold out to Jesus that others see Him in you. Never in the Word is there any hint that your relationship has anything to do with your comfort or complacency other than when God calls those areas sin. You and I are called to be the light of Christ to the world.
I don't know about you, but I desperately need God and His mercy and power to be anything like Jesus. I believe that's the bottom line for every one of us. The things that happen in our lives have little to do with whether or not we are to pursue a first love relationship with the Lord every moment of every day, and urge others to do the same with our every action and breath. If we persist in pursuing the Lord, our lives will be significant assets for His use.
When people see who we are when we act like Jesus, they will see who they are supposed to be. What happens after that is of little consequence to our mission of knowing God and being where He desires us to be. As we walk as Christ walked because we have been with Him, everything else will fall in place. We really need God every moment of our lives to get to that place and stay there, no matter what others do.
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